i dont know.
no feelings. no emotions.
no thoughts. no worries.
no smiles. no laughters.
no tears. no bawls.

i feel at peace the entire day.
serenity. my heart seems calm.
perhaps that's why
life seems so meaningless these days.
i thought i would break out in tears.
but i just sat still.
i thought i would break out in laughter
but i remained still.
surprisingly, amazingly.

just gotta get use to it.
and i'm adapting well.
i may act nonchalant but im not.
oh wells, maybe i am.
i dont care any more.

usually, i will worry my ass off.
but it didnt happen today.
someone must have taken my emotions.
cause i'm not angry
i'm not sad, i'm not happy.
i feel so dead. like a corpse. lifeless.



/ I say love it is a flower
and you, it's only seed.
but remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love,
in the spring, becomes the rose.